Time To Heal....

What do I miss about my Charlyboy?  I miss seeing you sprawled out allover the floor.  I miss you jumping up everytime I open the back door or hearing you wake up in your kennel the second I turned the alarm off.  My morning routine is not the same without you here.  I miss seeing you run at 100 miles per hour in the back yard when you would get excited.   I miss seeing you slide across the wood floor and about hit the wall when you came barrelling inside the back door.   I miss seeing you chew on your bone and ball and roll allover the grass.  Mowing the lawn just plain SUCKS without you walking with me.  I miss you stalking me whenever you hear the package of meat open ....just waiting for me to "accidentally" drop a piece on the floor. I miss how you just KNEW when I went to the cupboard and grabbed a can of tuna fish...you KNEW it was for you.  I miss laying on the floor with a treat in my hand and you attacking my hands trying to get it out.  Even tho it was all slobbery...I miss that.  I miss hearing the kids laugh....because of something you would do.  I miss running around the island in the kitchen and you chasing me or the kids.  Remember Charly you were NOT a puppy.  You were an 82 pound boy.  It sounded like a herd of Elephants running around the room...but it was aways fun.  I miss you pulling me around the neighborhood and I am sorry I didn't walk you more.  I miss when you would lay down on the floor and look up at us with your dark brown eyes....and not move your head.  It was adorable.  I will forever miss sharing my popcorn with you....sometimes via our mouth....and  you would always take it from my mouth gently. I have yet to have a morsel of popcorn since you've been gone. I honestly don't know if I can!   I miss your goofy expressions when I would pretend to throw you the bone....sometimes you were a space cadet and couldn't find it anywhere!  I miss you putting your head on the couch or nudging my arm or dropping your ball on my lap.  I miss you sitting at my feet at dinner time and begging for food.  Christmas, Easter and Halloween will never be the same without you Charles.  I will forever carve a pumpkin for you.  I will make sure your Easter Egg is colored and basket placed out and I will make sure Santa brings you a bone and I will donate it in your honor to a lonely dog.  My heart hurts for you daily.  My eyes won't dry for you anytime soon.  I'm sorry you suffered for so long and I wish I could have made you better.  I love you dear boy and miss you more than you will ever know or more than words could ever express.  I won't miss seeing you suffer each day and I am thankful I got to hold you in my arms when you feel asleep and was finally at peace.  I have noticed the signs you have sent from Heaven and I have appreciated every single one of them.  You know how much I need those!!!!   I look forward to many more. I love you son.  We all miss you dearly!  Forever...Mom