Dear Mom:
Today marks the 11th year of you being gone from this life, Mom and it pains my heart just like it did the day you left. It seems just like yesterday that we were holding you and watched you slip away to finally be at peace. The sun was shining a little brighter through the room as you took your flight up to heaven. (I know you stopped at the Moon first like we talked about) It's hard to believe that I have even survived this long without you by my side. It's even harder to fathom that Tayler, Ryan and Brayden (and all the other kids) have not had the opportunity to get to know YOU....The grandest of all ladies! You had the heart of gold and was always concerned of others. You had a smile that would light up a room along with eyes that would sparkle even when you were in extreme pain. (What an inspiration and strong lady you were) You had a great sense of humor and was a silly lady and beyond beautiful. You loved your grandkids more than they will ever be able to comprehend. (Your Little People) You loved camping and having family BBQ's and truly loved going to Wendover with your best friend and sister Joyce. You were the glue to our family and the family has kind of grown apart since you have been gone. My promise to you, Mom, is that I will make an effort to get our family together more and enjoy those special moments that you loved so much. I miss your smell and your smile and rubbing your feet with lotion and combing through your hair. (I con the kids into rubbing mine as often as I can get away with it...and I am always thinking of you) I miss your funny sounds you would make when you drank a Big Gulp or a Slurpee. I miss our donut cravings together (although I still have those all the time) I miss eating microwave popcorn together (I eat that all the time too) and I miss you getting excited over the Utah Jazz games. I snuggle with your pillow every single night! I have to admit that Wendover has never been the same for me since you have been gone, but I promise to go this year and hope for a "Jackpot Party" or the "Squirting Pig" or the "Pooper" and I will feel your presence there, because I know you will be with me.
But as I sit here and reflect on your life and mine, I realize that I haven't made it 11 years without you. You have been with me all along and will continue to be until the day I fly up to the Moon and meet you again. I look forward to the day that I can see you again. YOU are my inspiration in life. I can only hope to be half the woman you were but I will die trying. I will continue to be the compassionate woman that you were and I hope that I make you proud! I love you Momma.
I Miss You Dearly.
I will see you on OUR moon, when I am done here!
I love you forever
Your Cindy
PS...Tell Granny Hi for Me!! xoxo
PSS....I just called to say I LOVE YOU!
